Over the past month, I have had something thing that I am calling “Instagram Anxiety”. It’s not what you would expect. I’m not like most people who stress over posting enough and wanting their grid to be perfect with the right photos. It’s actually just the anxiety of opening the app to reply to messages, comments and engaging with people. It’s almost like social anxiety but on Instagram!
When I am on Instagram (on my ANAK Creates account) I am very active, I love to comment on people’s photos and engage. I have made many friends through Instagram, and very much enjoy it. The problem that happens (and has happened a few times but not to this extent) is that when I don’t check it for a day or 2, then I get this feeling that it’s going to take so long to catch up when I do, since I don’t want to leave anyone out. I am then waiting for the right time to do so, which just postpones me opening the app, resulting in more notifications stacking up, which just feeds onto itself.
This results in what’s currently happening, where I haven’t opened that account in over a month. I have seen a few messages come in asking if I’m still around because they have noticed my lack of engagement. This does make me feel better knowing that people do notice the work I put in.
This type of anxiety is not unique to Instagram for me, I can also get it with emails and texts, where I will feel like I can’t engage, making them pile up. I then need a spark of confidence to open things up and reply (which ends up taking basically no time) then everything is fine after that cuz it doesn’t feel like there’s a big scary monster in my head anymore.
So what’s my plan? I want to make a little video just talking about my time away to anyone who cares. I know I need to just deal with it, and I want to come back strong after a bit of a detox from it. A break from social media like that is good, so I’m not upset about that.
If you ever feel like that, know what it’s okay, anxiety shows up in the strangest ways. I am not an anxious person, but it pops up in some strange places.
Until next time, always be creating.